Soon after Qin An sent out his post, he suddenly remembered that he had forgotten to block Shen Shu from seeing it. However, after internally debating for a few moments, he ultimately didn’t decide to delete the post.
Shen Shu and Ruan Tian had already been divorced for centuries and their marriage was ancient history. It should be no big deal if he saw that she had found someone else, right?
Qin An reasoned with himself that way anyway.
Meanwhile, Shen Shu had just finished following his mother’s orders to attend yet another blind date with one of the young misses from their circle and returned home. As he got back, he sat down in the living room and found that the blind date had only left him with a strong sense of exhaustion. He tiredly closed his eyes for a few moments. When he opened them again, the first thing he did was look at his phone, and he happened to notice the new post Qin An had made on his Moments.
His chest suddenly felt even more blocked and stuffy, as if there was a large stone resting on his heart.
Mother Shen came into the room and asked, “What did you think of Miss Lu after meeting her today?”
Shen Shu was in a low mood. He replied curtly, “She seemed all right.”
What else could he say? These days all women looked the same in Shen Shu’s eyes.
The one woman who stood apart from the rest, Ruan Tian, would already no longer have anything more to do with him. No matter what he did or said, it was all futile.
Shen Shu had been unable to turn down the repeated urgings from his mother, which was why he had gone on blind dates with these so-called ‘young ladies from good families’ again and again. At first, he had thought that he would be able to easily extricate himself from his previous unhappy relationship the same way Ruan Tian had.
But, after so many blind dates, Shen Shu found that he had overestimated himself. He was still completely unable to get over it.
Sometimes he would sit down in a coffee shop for a blind date, and the entire time he wouldn’t hear a single word the woman opposite him said, or even seriously look at her appearance.
His mind would wander, only full of Ruan Tian.
Thanks to this, several blind dates in a row had all been fruitless. However, his mother still didn’t give up and continued to set up new blind dates again and again.
Shen Shu didn’t want to make his mother sad, so continued to go on these blind dates with the mentality of ‘giving it a try’.
However, even until now his mind was always as calm as water no matter what kind of woman he met. It seemed he might not ever love again.
And today’s blind date had been particularly bad. At the end of it, the woman had suddenly stopped him and asked: “Shen Shu, we’ve already been talking for half an hour, do you even remember my name?”
Shen Shu had only been able to apologize.
After all, he really hadn’t been listening the whole time and didn’t know her name.
Mother Shen could not help but sigh. Then she said, “I hope you don’t blame me. I’m only doing this for your own good.”
Mother Shen knew her son best and, of course, she felt sorry for him whenever she saw his current state. She continued, “I know you still have thoughts about that child, Ruan Tian, but the fate between the two of you was lost a long time ago…”
Shen Shu’s brow furrowed. He was usually always a calm and steady person, but this time he suddenly interrupted his mother in an uncharacteristically rude manner: “Mom.”
Then, one word at a time, he said: “I already know.”
He had already known it for a long time. There was no need to remind him about it again and again. To torture him with these words that were as sharp as a knife to the heart.
Seeing his pained expression, Mother Shen could only drop the topic.
With a slight sigh, she said, “It’s all over. You’ve already missed it. Just try to let it go.”
Shen Shu clenched his hands into fists, then loosened them again. He muttered, “Mom, I just can’t stand it.”
It was as if everything in his life had somehow gone wrong.
These days Shen Shu often found himself waking up in the middle of the night. Then he would stumble to his desk drawer as if in a trance, and look at his old graduation photos in order to think back to those old high school memories that now seemed so far away.
He had always been an aloof and arrogant person. There were few people he had ever truly hated and even fewer people who he had ever truly cared for.
However, he had shown an uncharacteristic amount of hatred toward Ruan Tian back then. He had listened to the devil’s whispers in his ears, rampantly despising her, trampling on her dignity, and playing with her feelings.
But everything had a reason in the end.
The seventeen-year-old Shen Shu of that year had just been stubborn and unable to admit, even to himself, the Ruan Tian had a place in his heart. Moreover, he had somehow felt it was his right to hurt her.
It had been a long time since Shen Shu had tried to contact Ruan Tian. But tonight, stirred by these thoughts, he couldn’t help himself and silently dialed her number on his phone.
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